We had the good fortune of connecting with Hannah Haddadi and we’ve shared our conversation below.

Hi Hannah, we’d love to hear about how you approach risk and risk-taking
Oh goodness, risk can be a complicated topic. Ultimately as a death worker and someone who supports people’s death/rebirth cycles, risk is not only key – it’s inevitable. Emerging into the world after being born is the first risk we take in our lives and for some, continuing to show up in the world is more of a risk than it is for others. Any time we make transformational decisions, there will always be risk. Risk that it won’t work out, that we will fail, or that our fears will come true – you name it. In great change we can feel like we will never leave the spaces of the unknown, of floating, of not knowing who we are yet or where we are going. It can even feel so scary that we might not want to continue the process. As someone who has gone through this kind of metamorphosis more than once, I can vouch that it is worth it – every time. I can also say that it isn’t always easy and sometimes I just want to stop and go back to old patterns that feel comfortable. But if I hadn’t taken big risks, I certainly wouldn’t be living my truth, sharing my stories and learning from my brilliant community. I get to explore my dreams and explore my current rebirth cycle, and that’s because I’ve continued to take risks again and again.

To me, risk to me is also about doing what we’re terrified to do. The things that we know deep in our soul to be true for us and that which we must do to continue the evolution and growth of who we have been, who we are, and who we are striving and dreaming to become. It is being courageous enough to believe in oneself, to do the hard work that comes with leaping, and to expect up’s and down’s along the way. If one takes the time to talk with others and learn about their stories, they will find that more people have taken huge risks to get where they are. Whether that’s within business, taking charge of their life, loving wholly, leaving people/situations that aren’t aligned or healthy for them – people have their own versions of what they’ve risked to continue moving forward in their death and rebirth cycles and I think these are worth honoring every time.

What should our readers know about your business?
My business, Mourning Light Divination specializes in death and rebirth work, grief work, intuitive wisdom & mediumship, ritual and transformational ceremony, as well as conversation around magic. It was created over a long period of time, as I had to grow myself and in my practice before it would be the right time to launch. I had to be initiated in some of my own great death and rebirth cycles before I could fully understand my path and the last 10 years of my life have been just that. I feel I can support people in their own life cycles, grief, and transitions because I have been to my own depths and back. We can share our stories, those ones that we lived to tell. Learning about people’s journeys, where they’ve been, and where they’ve come from is one the most amazing parts of my job and this work. I am currently most excited about a new offering I will be releasing closer to June, one that will involve a new way to work with me for a longer period of time and support people exploring and expanding their own gifts while also creating community together.

As far as where I am business-wise today, my parents owned businesses through out my life. I have learned so much about the internal business world by way of working with them, observing their mistakes, successes, and noting what I would do differently when I finally launched my own. I’ve found there’s a lot of things that can only be learned along the way while actually doing the work yourself, but one of the most important pieces I keep coming back to is staying true to self. I believe one can be a strong, smart business person who is still learning and also making decisions based on trusting their intuition. There are a lot of people out there who will tell you how to run your business, how to market, how to audience engage etc but ultimately, I’ve found the best practice is to know your own ethics, morals, and what you believe in and let those lead.

Let’s say your best friend was visiting the area and you wanted to show them the best time ever. Where would you take them? Give us a little itinerary – say it was a week long trip, where would you eat, drink, visit, hang out, etc.
I love to make to do lists and itineraries, so our week long trip will be in phases. First things first, I am taking them on a tour of my favorite cemeteries here in Colorado. Then a little road trip tour of Morrison, Evergreen and Golden, as these are some of my favorite places to hang out and sit in nature, as well as some other mountain towns. Breckenridge holds some very sweet memories for me, a trip down memory lane here most definitely. I used to love the city but as I’ve gotten older, I find more magic in spaces farther away. I’m one of those people who needs caffeine to function so some special trips to Corvus, Downpours, and Weathervane in Denver and Dirt Coffee in Downtown Littleton. Sandwiches from Curtis Park on 6th Ave and a hello to the wonderful people who run it. A tour of Denver’s metaphysical shops/apothecaries, ice cream from Sweet Action and Little Man {you can never have too much ice cream} and can’t forget a stroll down South Broadway – Hi Dive if we’re able to see live music, and food + drinks at Sputnik. {Sputnik will forever be my favorite bar in Denver!} A crawl over to Blush + Blu. Definitely a visit to Wax Trax and Twist and Shout for record splurges and probably a tour of Cap Hill and Cheesman Park while I take more trips down memory lane. The most fun and interesting places are those that have meaning and memory behind them for me. I’ve watched Denver change over the years and I’ll always be grateful for these places that helped shape me.

Who else deserves some credit and recognition?
I have a lot of people behind me to thank for where I am today, and I am so incredibly grateful for every single one of them. My parents are most definitely at the base of my foundation. My father especially has believed in me since the moment I was born and his influence in my life and all he has taught me will forever be irreplaceable. My mother has been the person I can go to for sound, practical advice as I’m a dreamer who can forget important details at times. My soul mate and brother, Ty Lawson, was one of the first people to see and accept me wholly in my life. We met in high school and he is the reason that I am still breathing today and he continues to support me even in his death. I would thank all the brilliant teachers at Metropolitan State University who helped and watched me grow. While I was in school, I started seeing first therapist and they helped me tremendously. My time working with them changed my life and helped me address a lot of trauma I had previously been through. Honestly, I’d also have to give a lot of credit and appreciation to the musician Conor Oberst and all the music he has created. It has been an incredibly helpful tool in my growth toolbox and for coming back to self.

I am really fortunate to have strong, beautiful friendships, best friends, covens, and other family members who have cheered me along, some for over a decade now. There are honestly so many names to write down that it would take a very long time. My time working at both Apothecary Tinctura and my parents coffeehouse, Backstage Coffee, shaped me dramatically for the better. Everyone I met, worked with, and learned from at these establishments held so much space for me. I learned so much about life and myself and will forever be grateful for those experiences and all the people & friends in my life that have carried through.

Website: mourninglightdivination.com

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